I haven’t posted here in a long time and a lot has changed. My Granddad has passed away and me and my boyfriend are no longer together. Putting that aside I’m actually really happy :)
I haven’t posted here in awhile, but I took a pregnancy test and hooray!! I’m NOT pregnant, I can now relax again :’)
I have so much to do tomorrow! I have to make a doctors appointment. For some weird reason my skin reacts weirdly to the sun. I get lighter then some pigmentation around my mouth, usually this happens when I forget to wear sunscreen on holiday but yeah. Also I haven’t had my period in a while and a part of me is really worried it might be because I don’t weigh much and that could be...
If you know me then you’ll know I love Maroon 5 so so much. I’m not the type of girl to fangirl over films or celebrities etc. I usually find it pathetic and weird but I can’t help but go a bit insane when it’s something related to Maroon 5. They’ve been my favourite band since I was 11 years old and I’ve seen them live twice. I’m so angry, for both those...
I am sooooooo happy right now <3
I need to update that yes, I am going back to uni again. It still hasn’t sunk in tbh, I didn’t imagine myself going back after the experience I had. So many people are shocked though, mainly because I didn’t really tell anyone I reapplied about from my family, Craig, Danielle and Aaron. But also because I won’t be back in Swansea, part of me wants to go back…only for...
simplyshaz: I feel so sick. You that feeling where you feel like you need to be sick, but you’re not? I feel like that. I think I would feel better if I did throw up though…seriously considering sticking a toothbrush down my throat to help me throw up. Ugh :(
I’m a slut because I said I don’t want a relationship? Alright then, whatever.
Why is it so hard for guys to leave me alone? I DO NOT WANT A BOYFRIEND. I DO NOT WANT A RELATIONSHIP. LET ME BE ALONE. FUCK OFF, PLEASE AND THANK YOU.
Forgive me for stereotyping, but seriously now. What is up with some Indian girls staring at you? They don’t even try to hide it, they just full on glare at you. Have you never seen another human being before or what? >_<
I should not be feeling this way. NO. NO. NO.
"I was never going to chat you up at first,...
simplyshaz: Two new guys have confessed their feelings for me today…just great. If this continues then I am prepared to shave my hair off. I really don’t need all this. Also what guy says to a girl “I’m really feeling you, you know…”? How was I meant to know that means they’re into you? NO ONE SAYS THAT!! o.O
simplyshaz: Funny how when I don’t want to be in a relationship everyone asks me out or decides to tell me they like me. I always feel so bad when I turn them down or I have to say I don’t like them back…ugh. On a positive note, my best friend Ricky slept over last night and it was probably one of the best days I’ve had in awhile :) <3 I’m just sitting here in my bathrobe deciding what to...
Finding out that your ex-boyfriend has become depressed because of you and has self-harmed is seriously just breaking my heart. Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Ok…it’s been awhile. I’ve noticed I haven’t posted on this blog about my uncle but yeah, he passed away. When Mum got to Morocco on Thursday she did get to see him and then he passed away shortly after. I’m just so glad she had a chance to say goodbye, it would’ve been heartbreaking for her to go and not find him there. I’ve been holding up really well...
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It’s costing around 7100dh to keep my Uncle on life support each day. That’s around £500, and money is going to run short. I mean my Grandparents are vastly wealthy, but most of their assets are tied up in land, property and shares. No one is going to buy at such short notice and because my Granddad is very ill too no one has access to the millions in his bank account. It’s not...
Anonymous asked: i'm very sorry to hear things are not going so well for you :/ i know i can't say anything to make it better but stay strong, beautiful ♡
I went to the hospital yesterday. Apparently I had an overactive thyroid gland and that was the reason I was struggling to keep my weight up. My body was producing so much of some hormone which meant my metabolism was through the roof. Basically I would have to eat very often, all day just to maintain a heathy weight. Around 7 stone (98 pounds) would be the ideal weight for my height, but 6.4...
So basically my Granddad has been ill for ages, he’s bed ridden and he’s developed alzheimer’s so he’s been kicking off, hitting people and doesn’t remember anyone so he’s in hospital now. It’s just been my Gran and Uncle at home in Morocco. A few nights ago my Gran said to my Mum on the phone that it’s been my Uncle keeping her sane and that if anything happens to him too then she might as...
Read from bottom to top. So I gave it ago and recorded myself doing my makeup at 9 in the morning. Hopefully it’s ok, it’s nothing special but meh :)
Anonymous asked: but just remember you are not alone. so many girls go through university being sexually abused by lecturers and they think it's their fault. well it's not! you are beautiful, but that is certainly not why this happened to you. you didn't deserve this one bit, but i admire you so much more for actually having the courage to leave university and speaking out about it. you are so so...
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simplyshaz: Wow…I love how after I Instagramed the picture of my outfit today to my Facebook (http://simplyshaz.tumblr.com/post/27482758194/ottd-outfit-outfits-grey-top-jeans-casual this one), 2 girls have just made statuses right after. Blatantly about me. One saying “A girl without curves is like jeans without pockets u don’t know where to put ur hands :)”, and the other said “I’d love to feed...
I haven’t blogged here in awhile. So yeah, Dad won his case and he has his job back! Thank God!! Not really sure what else to say.. Well my Dad had a huge go at me last night for not wanting to go back to university again, and I’ve been down about all morning. It’s not that I don’t want to, because I do but after the experience I had I’m scared it’ll happen all...
Dad had his trail today. It went ok, I think. Still waiting on the verdict. Oh God.
simplyshaz: I’m tired of everything. I’m sick of having to be so strong all the time, not just for myself but for the people who care about me. I’m sick of not having control over anything and when one thing goes right a million other things go wrong. I just want things to be easier because I’m tired of having to pretend to be ok when nothing is.
Dad got fired from his job and he’s being taken to court on the 5th July. Mum said there’s a chance he could go to prison. No one even tells me what’s going on anymore. It’s not fair :(
I could really use a hug right now. I hate it when things start to look up then come crashing back down all at once.
You should step in my shoes and walk a mile. Then...
I feel terrible, today I was supposed to be going for a meal for one of my best friends birthdays but I am not leaving the house looking like this. Both my eyes have swollen up, I look like I’m Chinese and I’m not being racist but it’s the best way for me to explain. And it looks like I’ve gained 10 pounds overnight and it’s gone straight to my face. I went to the...
Something has definitely changed, my boyfriend doesn’t make me as happy has he used too. I’m trying to figure it out but I feels like I’m getting bored of the relationship and that I’m falling out of love with him which sucks because he is the most amazing, sweetest and most caring person I’ve been lucky enough to know. I think we need to break up if I’m...